When you start walking on the spiritual path, mentally you start thinking – ‘Whooosshhh all will be fine now, He will take care of everything!’ This faith is of course not misplaced, but the process of life is often misunderstood after coming under the umbrella of a Satguru!
It is my experience that one’s life gets completely transformed for the better, it becomes calm, it becomes peaceful, it becomes joyous – but that does not mean that everything is hunky dory! You will suddenly find obstacles coming in your life, difficulties in your job/profession, it is not smooth sailing. That is when you begin to have doubts – in fact I have heard several people say that their problems started after they commenced meditation!
In several of His discourses, Swamiji has mentioned that if this is going to be your last birth then all your past karmas have to be extinguished, and if your past life has had upheavals then you end up facing those karmas on a high-speed basis. So, it appears that meditation is affecting your life badly. But always remember that the Satguru always gives you the inner strength and positive collectivity to face these life’s challenges to such an extent that you do not feel its impact at all.
Once you start performing Guru-karya, he will test you all the time. It could be questions, it could be tasks, it could be anything – you just need to be alert and remember that he is doing this for you! For your overall growth, for you to get depth in your spiritual practice – nothing is off the table – the most unexpected things will happen – but just face them with a smile and move on. That is what he expects you to do. Do not resist, if you do, then the task becomes tougher and life becomes tougher. Submit to His will, and you will find that you sail through life, through thick and thin.
Suddenly you will realise that you have begun to expect the unexpected – as you understand from within – oh! This is just another of His tests – and you face it with a smile and move on. The moment you start understanding and expecting this, you will find yourself facing life with a smile, you will notice people around you also start becoming happy and comfortable – this happens with the development of your energy field, your aura. Keep meditating and you will see that the tests which He is putting you through, are now not tests anymore, but just a game which you are playing with Swamiji as the referee!!